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Ramblings About How I Cured My Depression


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Since Robin William’s suicide I’ve been thinking a bit more about depression and my own relationship with it. It’s always been a very important topic for me. I used to be very depressed to the point where I made plans to kill myself and I think once when I was about twelve I even walked out the door with the intention of following through with it.

One day in seventh grade I remember telling half the class that I wished I was dead. Someone told me that wasn’t cool to joke about and I insisted that I was not joking and I genuinely wished I was dead. I never heard back about that. No one mentioned it to the teacher as far as I know, or if they did, she didn’t bother to address it.

The depression felt absolutely inescapable. For many years I envisioned my adult life as nothing more than going to work, coming home and watching television by myself. My greatest dream in life was to have 500 channels to distract me from how much I hated life. Having a successful career or even a loving girlfriend seemed completely unrealistic for me.

Then I went through a magical transformation in my late teens. It didn’t feel like I overcame a chemical disorder in my brain. It felt like reality itself had altered, like the whole universe had changed shape and meaning, as though God had finally presented Himself to me. If I went back in time to tell myself how happy I would be in my adult life, there’s no chance I would have believed it. I was so deep in depression that I wasn’t able to even accept that this kind of happiness and satisfaction was possible in human beings.

I think that may be one of the keys. A depressed person must first accept that happiness, true happiness and satisfaction absolutely is possible. But how do you communicate that? Just telling someone that it’s possible isn’t going to do it because it’s a feeling and belief that lies much deeper than our logical reasoning.

For so many years I’ve wanted to try to explain how I did it but it seems like every year that goes by it gets harder to frame into words and I lose the sense of what it felt like to be depressed.

What I do know is that I made a conscious choice to stop being depressed. I know that’s offensive to many people, but I truly believe it. However, I also remember when people would tell me that I could just choose to be happy. That didn’t help me. Just insisting that happiness is a choice is not doing anything to help people with depression.

On the other hand, insisting that depression is all chemical, calling it a disease, telling people that they are helpless, and implying that the cure can only be done through a doctor, I believe is even more damaging. I think that attitude was a big part of what kept me trapped for most of my childhood. There were actual authorities on the subject telling me that I was helpless, making me believe that there was nothing I could do to affect my own life.

I know that there are many chemical and biological reasons for depression. It frequently seems like a disease to both the sufferer and the medical professionals, but I feel that reminding people of that is an extremely counter-productive approach. People should feel empowered to make changes. Calling it a disease strips people of that power.

I never went to counselors for my depression or even really talked about it beyond that one day in seventh grade. I’m certainly not suggesting that people be that closeted about it, but in a way, I think it helped me by not telling anyone. I was never put in counseling and never prescribed drugs. I came out of my depression completely on my own. I think that counseling may really have helped me get out of it earlier, but I am convinced that taking regular pharmaceuticals may have helped temporarily but would ultimately have made me even more trapped in my negative perspectives.

However, my depression left me right around the same time that I got deep into marijuana and psychedelic use and started selling drugs. You could argue that the mushrooms, LSD and other psychedelics I took at that time changed the chemical makeup of my brain and allowed me to find a better life. There’s probably some truth to that, but at the same time I’ve known many depressed people who smoke weed and take psychedelics and see no improvement. In a very small number of cases it even seemed to make it worse. So simply going out and having fun with recreational drugs is not going to cure depression.

So what was it that really ended my depression? It’s hard for me to know for sure, but I think it had to do with me just kind of giving up on a lot of stuff. Again, not something I would recommend for someone fighting depression. But in all honesty, I kind of gave up on life. Specifically, I gave up on trying to find a girlfriend, but also, in general I gave up on my drive to be happy and fulfilled. Instead, I decided to just start smoking pot until I forgot how sad I was. I figured when the marijuana stopped killing the pain I would start drinking and if that didn’t do it I’d move on to coke and eventually heroin if that’s what it took to to make myself feel good.

I hesitate to tell this story because it sounds like absolutely horrendous advice to give to someone with depression. And it would be. In no way am I advising folks to take this approach.

On the other hand, it’s what worked for me. Life is such a strange, backward, counter-intuitive experience. Perhaps realizing that was part of my solution. I had to recognize that there is no logical road map for life and there never will be. Each and every person must carve their own path.

There were other things during that time that I think kept me safe from dangerous drug addiction. I got some minor drug addictions to marijuana and tobacco and may have felt myself becoming addicted to a couple other things like a form of speed that was still legal, but nothing that would kill me.

But I think what it came down to was that I was willing to make the decision to end my depression. I was willing to make the sacrifices. I was willing to give up all respect from my family and society as I went down my path of illicit drug use. I was okay with the risks. I knew I might go to prison or wind up dead in a ditch. I accepted that. At the time I didn’t realize how safe marijuana and mushrooms really were so I always felt like I was taking this huge risk. I think that sense of risk helped tremendously. Even though the fear was unpleasant at the time, the next day, after facing my fears of trying that new mystery drug, I felt empowered, like I’d overcome something, even if I hadn’t enjoyed the high. In the long run I think that was a major player in the end of my depression.

Another thing I think, was simply the marijuana community in Bellingham, Washington. That was just a unique and happy coincidence that the small-time drug dealers and users in that town were such supportive and caring individuals who accepted me for who I was without judgement. I guess that’s one solid piece of advice I can give in all this rambling: surround yourself with people who support you and accept you for who you are. Reject the others… but reject them compassionately.

On the other hand, you also want to surround yourself with people who are honest with you, who aren’t going to lie to you to protect your feelings. For me, I am happiest and most comfortable around people who I know aren’t going to sugar-coat things. If I catch someone lying, even if it’s coming from a place of love, I lose trust in that person and I lose a measure of self-respect. If I see them being brutally honest with someone, even if they’re being harsh, that can make more comfortable knowing they probably aren’t harboring unspoken judgments.

Is that good advice? I don’t know. It seems so counter-intuitive. Many folks insist that you should be supportive and make people feel good even if that means not being totally straight with them. That doesn’t work for me but it might for other people. But I wonder if many people who take that attitude are also suffering depression. It does seem kind of rare to see someone who is ruthlessly honest and straightforward who is also suffering from deep depression, but maybe that’s just my own perceptions fucking with me.

But maybe the best advice I can give is to experiment. Don’t just accept your depression lying down. Try new things. Try new ways of looking at life. Get to know new kinds of people. Gauge how all this makes you feel over time and keep experimenting. If something helps you feel empowered or like there’s a beacon of hope, then explore it further, even if it doesn’t directly help your depression. Search for new and different ways to truly convince yourself that escape is possible and that you deserve that escape, and that your friends, family and society are all rooting for you.

On the other hand, I’m no psychologist or counselor. I’m just one dude who happened to cure his own depression and is now writing a rambling, disorganized blog post about it. Who knows if I have any idea what I’m talking about.

That gratifying sense of justice


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Today I posted a new true story called The Jalapeno of Justice. This is something that happened around 1996, when I was a junior in high school.

So this post contains a spoiler so I suggest reading the story before reading any further as it’s not too long and I think it’ll give a few perspectives that I’m not going to get into in this post.

So basically, the story is that I was at a party that didn’t allow drugs and alcohol, but one person refused to stop smoking pot so some dudes anally raped him with a jalapeno. The really fucked up part of this is that I totally supported the rape, though of course, I did not see it as rape. I saw it as simple justice for the horrible crime of smoking marijuana.

I’ve been hesitant to write and post this story all these years that I’ve been writing true stories on this blog, for obvious reasons. It makes me look like a complete, sadistic asshole, which in this situation, I absolutely was. I don’t think many people want to admit that they have the capacity to be a truly horrible person, but this is what I must do.

But I don’t think I’m unique here. I think the majority of people around me have a similar capacity for sadistic behavior. You might say that getting raped with a jalapeno for smoking some weed is a little harsh but if you stop and think about the things the Partnership for a Drug Free America and other anti-drug individuals and organizations support, anal rape really is not a big deal. The person in this story no doubt would have preferred that over being chased down by a police officer with a gun, having his life threatened, getting thrown in jail for a night, and possibly getting kicked out of school. Anal rape as punishment for marijuana and pro-drug advocacy can be considered mild in comparison to many of the things our criminal justice system is already doing on behalf of the drug war.

I have a recurring theme in this blog that I like to talk about and that I don’t think gets enough attention in popular media and psychology. This is my theory that human beings enjoy watching each other suffer. This seems obvious considering the popularity of horror movies, but people almost always forget about how this may cause us to be bias when talking about political opinions.

I believe in our current society we have targeted specific criminals like drug dealers and sexual deviants with our hatred. I think deep down we understand that the punishments and hate we force upon these people are ultimately not going to make the problems go away. Thousands of years of laws and punishments have proven that we are going to have criminals one way or the other, yet we continue punishing and imprisoning. I don’t believe we are doing this because we really think it’s making us more secure, or even because it’s giving us the illusion of safety. We punish criminals because we enjoy knowing that they are suffering. Simple as that. It would be so easy to change our strategies to help people, to show compassion and to find real and effective ways to change the state of criminal behavior today, but we don’t because that desire for vengeance is so powerful.

The police distance us from these occurrences, keeping us naive. The general public never feels that gratifying sense of vengeance when a criminal is apprehended, so it leaves us wanting more. On the other hand, we are never exposed to the pain and horror that a punished individual actually feels, dramatically muting our compassion. Police officers, on the other hand, become addicted to the power, vengeance and sadism. The whole system then becomes a self-perpetuating cycle of hatred, revenge and cruelty. And we’re all in denial about it.

more pro-choice ideas


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This is the second part to an article I wrote a long time ago called A New Perspective On Pro-Choice. It goes something like this…

There are other arguments that for some reason are totally overlooked, maybe because they’re difficult to explain, or just sound cheezy or nerdy or because so many people believe that God will solve humanity’s large-scale problems for us so we don’t need to worry about them.

1) Babies take resources. The baby will grow to be an adult who will use even more resources. These resources could be used to save the lives of people who are starving. Our world is currently struggling to feed everyone and failing. Every new child that is born will take even more resources, and make this situation worse. Every new child will drive a car, use electricity, and will ultimately contribute to global warming and overpopulation. I’m not quite sure why this argument is never made. Perhaps people are afraid it will be insulting to anyone who wishes to make a baby or maybe it just kind of seems like something we just shouldn’t worry or care about. But we should care. Overpopulation is a serious concern and if we were not so overpopulated, our society would not be facing nearly the environmental destruction nor the war and hatred of our modern era.

2) This next one may sound cheezy to many, and I’ve never heard it argued before. Perhaps it’s just nerdy science-fiction fans and evolutionists who might think this way, but our species is evolving. We are past the point where we can blindly trust our instincts when it comes to the future of our evolution. We need the right to choose how our species progresses. This is particularly important when talking about instances of rape and incest. We don’t want rapists passing their genes on to the next generation and we don’t want inbred children. Furthermore, if a woman believes she won’t be a good mom, or if she or the father has a genetic disorder of some sort, she should have the right to decide that they’re not the most suitable couple to pass genes on to the next generation.

3) Legal abortion seems to reduce crime rates. Granted, the science is not exact http://works.bepress.com/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1011&context=john_donohue&sei-redir=1&referer=http%3A%2F%2Fscholar.google.com%2Fscholar%3Fq%3Dabortion%2Breduces%2Bcrime%26hl%3Den%26as_sdt%3D0%26as_vis%3D1%26oi%3Dscholart%26sa%3DX%26ei%3DY5a0T8_2IvPbiAK5xrWWAg%26ved%3D0CAYQgQMwAA#search=%22abortion%20reduces%20crime%22

4) The real-world practicalities of outlawing abortion are insane. It would become the next drug war.


I’d like to propose that we change our approach to the pro-choice argument, to find one that acknowledges that abortion is not a good thing and recognizes that unborn children deserve respect as human beings, without backing down from our position.  What exactly that approach would look like is another question, but there are a number of different options. The bottom line is we need to branch out, change our strategy and make it clear that this issue is about far more than women’s rights. Here are a few of my ideas:

1) We should make it clear to the pro-life community that we are trying every bit as hard to prevent abortions. When we hand out condoms or teach safe-sex, lets start referring to it as abortion prevention. When Planned Parenthood gives medical care or education to pregnant women, lets call attention to the fact that they are saving the lives of unborn people.

2) We could start campaigns for adoption and express the opinion that pro-lifer’s have a moral obligation to help the unwanted children they helped to create.

3) We can put a human face on homeless and abused children and make it clear that the pro-life perspective is directly supporting their suffering and genuinely ask them how they can justify doing this to children.

4) We can put a human face on children starving in third-world countries and make sure people know that new babies here will affect food supplies for those innocent children.

5) Ask pro-lifers if they love their family, then help them to see how people saved from abortions never get to experience this. Bring up specific ways their families have helped them, emotionally, financially or spiritually and ask them to imagine a life without that support.

6) I’ve always wanted to make an argument I call The Pro-Life Challenge. If a pro-lifer really believes it’s okay to force children to grow up without a family simply to avoid killing them, then ask them to prove it by going one year without speaking to a single member of the family they wouldn’t have if they had been placed in foster-care. If they can’t go even one year without a family, what right do they have to force people to go an entire lifetime?

Ask them to tell a small child that their parents never wanted them and take a long look at how the child reacts and feels. Ask them to truly visualize what it might be like to grow up knowing the only reason you exist is because law-enforcement threatened to destroy your mother’s life if she didn’t give birth to you. Ask them how that might affect their relationship with their parents and their outlook on life. For extreme cases, ask them how it might feel to go their entire life knowing they were the product of a rape. Too often people abstract the human element away from political issues and with this issue, we desperately need to find a way to bring it back. We need to find compassionate ways to help the pro-life community understand the underlying feelings associated with this issue and help them imagine what life might be like in other people’s shoes, instead of simply accusing them of hating women.

7) Animal rights activists can use the abortion issue to help their own cause by pointing out that science has shown that pigs, cows and most mammals have more intelligence and brain power than a human fetus or even a human newborn. According to a Nova documentary I once watched, one of the interesting things about human brain development is that we begin our lives with less brain power than most other newborn mammals. The idea that a human fetus feels more pain than other animals is simply untrue.

8 ) Let’s point out that anyone who wants to cut funding for foster-care, maternity leave, and assistance for low-income families, is essentially pro-abortion, as not having the means to support their children is one of the primary reasons women have abortions.

9) Let’s remind them about how the female body purposefully seeks and destroys the majority of fetuses seemingly arbitrarily and ask if they are doing anything to prevent miscarriages.

10) We should get statistics on who is pro-life and who is pro-choice. I’ve heard the theory that the majority of pro-lifers have three things in common: One, they are mostly religious. Two, they all come from two-parent households, never experiencing so much as a divorce. And three, they have no intention of ever adopting a child. I personally have never met a pro-lifer who did not fit this description. The first one is obvious, but we need to do some research and confirm statistically the second two then call them on both their ignorance of the real-world suffering and ask for an explanation for why they, for the most part, have little desire to give these children a home.

11) However, we also need to remember that there are a few notable exceptions, such as The Christian Alliance For Orphans  and we should give them the credit they deserve (assuming they are genuinely trying to help orphans that already exist instead of trying to manipulate pregnant women into thinking adoption is preferable to abortion as seen in this article). If we can’t change a pro-lifer’s mind, then we can at least direct them to organizations such as this, redirecting their energy toward helping children and away from attacking Planned Parenthood.

we need to show vulnerability – why we should admit that unborn babies can be people, and provide a vision of a better future where we can all be pro-life, where kids aren’t living on the street and our foster-care system isn’t overrun with molestation complaints.

12) I have met a few orphans myself and every one of them was very pro-choice. We need to get actual statistics on this and make them known. There’s a reason why people who have been smoking for thirty years are the ones most adamant that you should never start, because they are the ones directly affected by the issue.

“The difference between knowing you’re wanted and knowing you’re not is quite big… It’s like going to a party where you know you’re not invited no matter how polite people are.”

-Absolutely Fabulous, (1992)

Thou Shalt Not Lie


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This is a commandment that I actually agree with. I’ve heard atheists argue that this can be a problem because occasionally telling a lie is the right thing to do, such as if you were hiding a Jewish person in your attic in Nazi Germany. This is one of the few cases where I tend to agree with the Christians instead of the atheists. I would make a few exceptions for if you’re lying to a government entity or a selfish corporation, but I believe that it’s never okay to lie or deliberately deceive an individual a person.

However, I find it truly ironic that atheists tend to be the ones who keep saying there should be exceptions to this commandment, then they turn around and follow it nearly perfectly. On the other hand, Christians tend toward the opposite: they believe wholeheartedly in the absoluteness of this commandment, then make up all sorts of excuses to avoid following it.

And sometimes it blows my mind just how common and acceptable lying really is in our society, and it makes me angry, to the point where I wish people would shout about this commandment more often.

Too often we don’t even stop to think about a blatant lie or even consider that it might be morally wrong. For example, in my state, bartenders are legally required to flat-out lie to people’s faces when they ask what time it is, telling them that it’s fifteen minutes later than it really is. Instead of recognizing this as a direct violation of one of the Bible’s commandments, we simply call it “bar time”.

Then we lie to our children, and for the lamest reasons too, such as convenience, or because we think it’s cute. We tell them about Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny as though they’re real, without bothering to care about how that distorts their ability to perceive reality or how it teaches them that lying is acceptable if it makes someone feel good temporarily. Then many adults (admittedly not all) occasionally lie to children simply to mock them and laugh at their gullibility. I remember my first-grade teacher did this on a regular basis.

Recently a friend had a problem with her son’s behavior. The kid had clearly been wrong for what he did, but she was so desperate to find an immediate and absolute solution that she told him that whenever he was bad she would always find out, no matter what, that adults always know when you do things like this and you’ll always get caught. As I heard this, I was watching the kid’s face and could see his complete lack of respect for her bold-faced lie. Kid’s aren’t idiots and they know that they can get away with stuff, because they’ve gotten away with stuff in the past. Saying things like that simply encourages kids to distrust everything their parents say and teaches them how to lie themselves.

Lies, lies, lies. For some reason people only seem to see lying as wrong in our society if it’s happening to them.

ISellPot’s old FAQ page


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This is the old FAQ page from my old website called Get To Know a Marijuana Dealer which was my old website where I talked about being a marijuana dealer. I miss that website a bit. There was a lot more interaction there than there is now on Kalinbooks. People responded a lot. They usually sent me messages of support. A few called me a horrible person. A handful of police officers sent me death threats.

Anyway, this was the old FAQ page. It brings back memories :)

Q. Are you for real? Do you really sell marijuana, then flaunt it on the internet?

A. Yes, I do sell marijuana. I’m not big-time, but I easily cover what I smoke and maybe make a few extra bucks on the side. I flaunt it on the internet to make the simple point that drug laws are not working. Ultimately I’m hoping to do my small part for legalization.

Q. Can you hook me up with a sack?

A. Sorry. I have to get to know you, first, in person. The reason I can flaunt my dealing like this is because I’m careful about who I sell to. The only way to bust a dealer is to set them up, and it would be quite easy to set someone up through email. My balls aren’t that big. Wish I could help, but sorry.

But if you happen to know anywhere to find a connection over the internet, let me know and I’ll post it, or if you happen to be a dealer yourself, I’ll advertise your wares for free on my homepage or anywhere else on my site you would like.

Q. Someone stole my ______. What should I do?

I get this question alot because unfortunately dealers and potheads are targets for thieves because we are generally peaceful and won’t go to the cops. Unfortunately I can’t offer much help. My method is to merely stay away from people that aren’t ethically solid. It’s very important for everyone in life, not just dealers, to choose their friends based on how ethical they are, so you can avoid these kinds of things before they happen. If you make friends with thieves, it’s your own damn fault.

I don’t think its wrong to kick someone’s ass if he blatantly steals from you, but it’s often not in your best interest and can cause more problems than its worth. Usually your only option is to go around and tell absolutely everyone what happened and do what you can to ruin the thieves reputation.

Q. How much should a sack weigh?

A. People keep asking me this question, but unfortunately, my answer is meaningless unless you live in Bellingham WA. Prices vary dramatically from town to town, and from dealer to dealer. In Bellingham, also, prices rise in late summer, early fall, and drop in the spring and early summer. Street dealers naturally charge more for the same weed than friends do. Obviously the quality of the weed also is a major factor, and the type of weed available can vary dramatically from state to state. Some states have nothing but dirt weed, some have nothing but chronic, and others have a variety.

In my town however, an eighth of decent, seedless, BC bud at 3.5 grams goes for $40. An ounce goes for about $220-$280, and a ten dollar dime bag contains about 4/5’ths of a gram. Crappy mexican bud usually goes for about half this price if not less.

So basically, my answer is, I cannot answer this question. You need to ask around your community. Find out what other dealers weigh their sacks at. You can also read my Beginner’s Guide to Marijuana Distribution which has a section on weights and measurements and figuring out how much to sell a sack for.

Q. How fast can I sell such and such a quantity? How much should I charge?

A. How the hell should I know? I don’t know where you live or how much weed goes for in your town or how many friends you have or how often they buy or how much risk you’re taking or how much time you want to spend. All I can give is generalized advice. The specific mathematics of dealing is something you need to figure out for yourself based on your own desires and what you see in your peers.

If you’re not fully confident in your plan I suggest discussing it with another local dealer that knows your situation and has experience, and I suggest sitting down with a calculator and figuring out a solid plan that works mathematically, and then stick to it.

Q. Aren’t you worried about getting busted, announcing your business to the world like this?

A. Yes, at first I was a little concerned, but I’ve been running the site since June of 2000, averaging more than 100 visitors a day, posted an advertisement for it on the local police station door, smoked pot in front of and inside that police station, and I’ve gotten no reaction from them whatsoever. The cops know that marijuana dealers are not a real threat to society. The only reason they bust people for marijuana is for the money. I’m not big-time and they know I wouldn’t introduce them to anyone, so I’m not worth anything to them. I could call the cops and tell them my buddies were coming over to buy a sack and they would probably laugh and tell me they’ve got better things to worry about. I’m not worth the trouble.

Let me ask you, when you came to this site, was your first reaction, “Hey! I’d better call the police and tell them what this guy’s doing.”?

No?

I don’t think anyone else has had that reaction either.

 

Q. Aren’t you just a sellout? Didn’t you turn in one of your friends? How can we listen to you now after what you did?

A. Well. I was a sellout, back in early 1999, but I had a completely different perspective on the justice system back then. I thought cops didn’t lie. I thought the system would come through on all its threats. I thought society actually believed all the propaganda about marijuana, and that I’d be seen as any other criminal.

But I didn’t completely sell out this person. The police promised again and again that he would not be arrested, and in fact they would not have enough evidence to arrest him. I would not have done it if not for that promise. It was true that they didn’t have enough evidence to legally arrest him, but they went out and did it anyway. But in the end, nothing happened to him. He didn’t see a minute of jail or a dollar fine. If you’re interested, you can read the complete story.

So yeah, I did a horrible thing to another dealer. I wouldn’t call him a friend exactly. an acquaintance. He didn’t deserve it by any means, so I don’t blame him for beating the crap out of me for revenge. Many readers still try to make me feel bad about what I did, but I think I’ve already paid the price. We consider ourselves even now. So now I want to use this site to turn my experiences into something positive, that others can learn from.

So for anyone who wants to write me an email telling me I’m a horrible person, I should say, I’ve already heard it. It’s not going to do anyone any good in the long run. It won’t help others to avoid making the same mistake. Anger is a gift. You can use it to punish the past or to fix the future.

Q. Do you know anything about passing drug tests?

A. A little bit. I wholeheartedly encourage anyone to cheat drug tests. I’ve known people who didn’t quit for even a day, then passed by taking large doses of Echinacea with Goldenseal and cranberry, or using a urine additive. I knew another who quit for two weeks and used a system-cleanser with a %200 guarantee and still failed.

I had another friend who states that there is a dietary supplement called Sonne 7 that can be taken in liquid form. You take a shot a day of the stuff and after a month it clears your system and as long as you keep taking a single shot every single day, you can pass all the drug tests you want.

I knew one friend who took a test for a job taking no break from smoking, as he was almost a daily smoker, and didn’t cheat in any way. He came up clean for marijuana, but tested positive for barbiturates, which he had never tried in his life.

So don’t let yourself be screwed over by a drug test. You have a right to cheat the tests, and no one can catch you unless you tell them you’re cheating.

I finally managed to find a good document on drug testing, How to Pass a Drug Test. Keep in mind that I haven’t actually read much of it, and I can’t guarantee it, but it seemed like the author knew what he was talking about. If you use the advice, let me know how things turn out.

If anyone out there can confirm or deny any of the drug test cheating sytems out there or that I’ve mentioned, please contact me.

Q. Do you need a hookup, Kalin? I sell quantity.

A. No. Again, that safety issue. I’m flattered, though. I already have a steady supplier, but thanks. If you’re looking for more customers, I can advertise your wares on my website at no charge.

Q. Do you have a problem finding people to sell to you because of this website and because you were a narc once?

A. It’s an issue, I suppose. It’s not a problem though. I’m open and honest with my dealers and I tell them about my website and that I once narced on an acquaintance. Normally, an intelligent dealer wouldn’t have anything to do with someone who once narced, but because of this website and the fact that I’m honest and trying to show people what a mistake I made, it’s not such a big deal. Once in a while they get a little nervous about my site, thinking the heat might be up on me, but they usually get over it.

Q. Do you have advice for someone searching for pot?

A. My first suggestion is to relax. It’s not that big of a deal if you can’t find weed right now. Something will come along. It always does. Beyond that, you should read my answer to all your problems. Basically, just be yourself, be patient, and just keep asking people. Sometimes the last person you’d think who’d be smoking weed is the one that can hook you up with the killer green. Often times, people that don’t smoke weed at all will know someone that can help.

If you’re nervous about asking people or get the impression that they don’t trust you, start out by mentioning weed a few times or joking about it to show them you’re okay with it and that you’re open minded. Later, you can ask if you can give them five or ten bucks to smoke you a bowl. Still later, you can ask if they know someone who can hook you up.

Read my common courtesy for drug buyers page page, to make sure you know all the little courtesies involved in buying a sack. Failing to follow courtesies is what will get people to stop doing business with you. You should also read my book, Beginner’s Guide to Marijuana Distribution to get a feel for how dealers work. It should be very helpful, even if you have no plans of becoming a dealer.

Q. Why do you sell marijuana?

A. To provide a service to the community, To get high, To meet new people, To make extra money, To make a stand for freedom, To earn free weed, To put some excitement back into life, To promote peace, To have fun, To avoid living life as a slave.

Q. Should I start selling marijuana?

A. Why not?

 

Are Our Children Being Pushed into Prison? » The Movement


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This is an info graphic that I think shows some pretty interesting trends in our criminal justice system. I think that our criminal justice system is horribly racist… well, let me rephrase that. It’s not so much racist as it is devastatingly prejudiced. It’s not like it’s run by the KKK or anything but it’s run by people who think with their emotions and when they see a black person they just think criminal because it’s been drilled into our society. This prejudism can happen to anyone, regardless of how much they are opposed to racism.

But what I wasn’t aware of was the rates of foster-care kids who enter prison. I’ve never seen these statistics before. My whole life I’ve had a hard time accepting people who make babies of their own when there are so many children living on the streets and in foster homes because I feel like foster kids totally get the shaft in our society and nobody really notices. I once argued with a pro-lifer about this issue and he just rolled his eyes and told me that foster kids turn out just fine.

The problems here are not all the fault of the criminal justice system. There are many other things at play here, but I think these statistics should tell us that dealing with people as though they are people, giving them loving homes, and a supportive community is going to be far more effective at preventing wrongdoing than throwing them in prison.

Laws don’t Protect Consumers


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I found this page the other day on Huffington Post about Seattle banning ride share apps. Basically, there are phone applications used to connect riders with drivers and are allowing people to save a lot of money on rides around town. I have never used one of these but have friends who rave about them. Seattle, apparently is a testing ground for these kind things. It seems to be working out well for Car-2-Go as well as the companies listed in the article as well as my friends who use the systems.

rideshareSeattleBut of course, the taxi cab companies already have a foothold in our local political system and have manipulated and pressured the city council into considering a ban on. They claim it’s for public safety, but if you follow the money, it’s clear they are merely trying to protect their income without being forced to re-evaluate their business model for a changing society. Ultimately, consumers are suffering, as we are still being forced to wait 45 minutes for a cab so we can pay $30 to get across town.

It’s just one example out of a myriad of how our government and lawmakers just cause problems for the general population for the benefit of a small minority. Most of the time they sneak these bans in and no one notices. I can’t imagine just how much innovation has been stifled throughout the years by companies who use legislation to stifle their competition instead of working on a fair playing field.

And people try to use examples of how government helps us, claiming consumer protection is so important, but I believe this protection is largely a myth. The government built all our roads for the car companies instead of forcing them to compete with the railroad and bicycle companies on a fair playing field. Now we live in a society where everyone just blindly accepts that cars are the only way to get around, despite how they have forced us to use tax dollars to pave over our wilderness, are destroying our atmosphere and forcing parents and pet owners to keep their loved ones locked inside for fear they will be run over.

I could go on for example after example I think, but I’ll just do one more: almost ten years ago, I tried switching my internet service to a company called Clearwire. When I signed up they promised their internet service was comparable to Comcast, but I soon found that I was unable to watch even YouTube videos and some things wouldn’t connect at all. When I tried to cancel, they charged me over $300 for an early-termination fee, something that was buried in the fine-print of the contract and which the salesman had specifically told me did not exist. I attempted to fight it by cancelling my credit card, but they harassed me until I finally compromised and gave them about $200 to forgive the “debt.” I was rather poor at the time so this was a lot of money for me. People complain so often about Comcast’s customer service, but I tell you it is a world better than Clearwire was.

Now, the other day, nearly ten years after I went through all this frustration, I got a letter in the mail with a check for a little over $14, after a lawsuit settlement against Clearwire on behalf of all the people they did this to.

So even when there are legal successes on the consumer’s behalf, it doesn’t even begin to make up for the problems these selfish and underhanded companies cause for society.

Compare that to my experiences in the unregulated underground marijuana distribution. I mean, I bought marijuana literally several hundred times from dozens of different dealers in quantities ranging from a gram to a pound. Not once was I ever ripped off. Not once did a dealer ever pad a sack with catnip and not once did they ever “just take the money and run”. Not one single time.

So yeah, consumer protection is a joke. The government does far more to protect morally void companies from consumer backlash.

Everything is Awesome!


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My girlfriend talked me into seeing the new Lego movie the other night. I wasn’t expecting much, but then she told me it had a 90-something rating on Rotten Tomato so I thought there might be something to it.

Right off the bat this movie starts poking fun at our brainwashed, media-manipulated, totalitarian culture and how oblivious we are to it. Then it goes into a fun little music video before moving on to a psychedelic underground experience that I immediately knew had to be LSD or mushroom inspired. It moves on to demonstrate how psychotic and brutal our police forces are, then there’s an anarchist who saves the day. They travel to an anarchist culture depicted as a beautiful place of peace and freedom without ignoring the inherent difficulties that would be involved in an anarchist culture.

Later in the film there is a blatant reference to LSD… at least it seemed pretty blatant to me, though unfortunately I can’t tell you what it is without giving a spoiler warning. Suffice it to say this movie is intended as a metaphor for an average Joe who drops some acid and suddenly sees the world around him for what it truly is and uses that experience to embrace his creativity and build a better world for himself and the people around him.

So I highly recommend this movie. Probably the best social commentary cartoon movie since Wall-E. The preview doesn’t do it justice.

On Being An Outlaw – YouTube


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I don’t know who this chick is, but I must say I’m pretty impressed. I wish I had this kind of speaking ability. She may be following a script but it looks like she’s just coming up with this off the top of her head and beautifully describing my own opinions about anarchism.

I particularly like what she says about the two parties. I get so frustrated with liberals because I want to call myself a liberal since I agree with most of their social ideals like equality and the idea of healthcare for all but they are so hypocritical about the way they go about it, vehemently supporting gay rights while ignoring other sexual and social minorities and attacking the republicans every time they violate the constitution while ignoring it themselves when it doesn’t serve their purpose.

Anway, this Josie The Outlaw makes me think that maybe I should make a few YouTube videos myself. Of course, I would have to read from a script because my brain, as well as it does work, functions slower than Josie’s. I could do my 35 Ways Criminal Justice is Counter-Productive to Peace on Earth article, my 22 Ways Religion Promotes Crime, and my Life Management Skills (I think I’d want to eat a bunch of shrooms and film that one while I’m out in the woods.) I really think I should try and do this because videos have much more of a chance to go viral than a blog post, but I have little to no experience in video production so it would be a little bit of a learning curve.

Message to Police – YouTube

I‘m not so sure about the constantly changing backdrop in this video, but what she is saying is quite valid. Police officers do not care about right and wrong. They could not do their job if they did. People get all upset when I say that, but it’s a simple fact. If they cared about right and wrong, then there would be the occasional instance of police refusing to enforce a law that they disagree with but as she says, that is extremely rare.

However, there is always hope. Someone can always come back from that kind of inhuman career. We just need to reach out to them. Unfortunately, most of us who understand this have been too terrorized by the police to be emotionally able to do that.